As I go through all kinds of feelings and experiences in my journey through life — delight, surprise, chagrin, dismay — I hold this question as a guiding light: “What do I really need right now to be happy?” What I come to over and over again is that only qualities as vast and deep as love, connection and kindness will really make me happy in any sort of enduring way. - Sharon Salzberg
Where is the starting point , where we get to hate ourself in many ways ?
although we tell yourself we are useful we have out best point , but there are a point we suddenly hate ourself of what we are and why we can’t do like how other ppl , i’m living in the family that family control alot and make me from young now i always scare this and that i can’t even do anithing that i like
even though they say , i’m free already but there are sometimes my life is still stuck at some point which i feel like i’m a bird that are lock in the cage .
wishing myself is like some other kids can do whatever they want , but i can’t make me feel who i am afterall . in my life something hurting myself is the onli way to relive myself from stress , not like taking a knife and cut myself , but using many ways to make my heart hurts .
people sees me like a happy go luckly girl , but who will know i’m actually a girl who tends to cry alot at home and force my lips to smile . so called EMO .
mummy tends to say me useless to a point that i shouldn’t be alive , she shouldn’t give birth me cuz if she know i’m useless ,this words keep following me since young and i always believe that i’m useless i shouldn’t be living but i dun have the courage to kill myself .. issn’t that useless the devil might be laughing at me now say now useless i am dun even dare to kill myself .
haiz , i dun know who i am now .
Giving up of myself ~~
quotes ~ i’m still trying to find answers that i’m not useless , but who can tell me .