My new chip ATM card is LOST !!!! *SHIT * Called DBS to find out what happen to my card , and guess what they sent out during  JULY !! means it’s * missing in action* …. now i need to go down to POSB and make a new card . how good is this huh !!

In malawi all those kids parent are dead long ago and all of them had a hard time , we always complaint so much about food and what we use , but all those kids today they have food but after that they have to worry about tomorrow .

in malawi , each of them can onli live up to a age of 37 years old , cuz most of the kids parent contact aids and many other illness.

and about almost few hundred thousand kids are orphan , so let’s us make a effort and adopt a child and give them a better life ,  one year is onli $300 …. all this money will give them encourage to study hard and get healthy , let’s us do a part we are having good life but what about those kids in the poor country !!!

hope to see how do my adopt child look like .~~~

Harry potter!!!!

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As I go through all kinds of feelings and experiences in my journey through life — delight, surprise, chagrin, dismay — I hold this question as a guiding light: “What do I really need right now to be happy?” What I come to over and over again is that only qualities as vast and deep as love, connection and kindness will really make me happy in any sort of enduring way. - Sharon Salzberg

Where is the starting point , where we get to hate ourself in many ways ?

although we tell yourself we are useful we have out best point , but there are a point we suddenly hate ourself of what we are and why we can’t do like how other ppl , i’m living in the family that family control alot and make me from young now i always scare this and that i can’t even do anithing that i like 

even though they say , i’m free already but there are sometimes my life is still stuck at some point which i feel like i’m a bird that are lock in the cage .

wishing myself is like some other kids can do whatever they want , but i can’t make me feel who i am afterall . in my life something hurting myself is the onli way to relive myself from stress , not like taking a knife and cut myself , but using many ways to make my heart hurts .

people sees me like a happy go luckly girl , but who will know i’m actually a girl who tends to cry alot at home and force my lips to smile . so called EMO .

mummy tends to say me useless to a point that i shouldn’t be alive , she shouldn’t give birth me cuz if she know i’m useless ,this words keep following me since young and i always believe that i’m useless i shouldn’t be living but i dun have the courage to kill myself .. issn’t that useless the devil might be laughing at me now say now useless i am dun even dare to kill myself .

haiz , i dun know who i am now . 

Giving up of myself ~~ 

quotes ~ i’m still trying to find answers that i’m not useless , but who can tell me . 

what you see in the mirror (and how you see yourself on the inside) isn’t whats really there. Your insecurities are always magnafied..

Sometimes really if u dun have a wide heart and can’t take things down

somehow it’s really suffering as ur mood will be down for long days and maybe hour , what will you do when u are feeling down .  

I dun know what i want to do now , sadness and irrating people keeps poping out .

I HAD IT ENOUGH ! 

Todays topic ! 

Teacher in ACS boy storm now boasts of uncle who’s TV chief in China
KK seriously whats going on with the “BITCH” TRYING TO DO so what her uncle is the big thing in china , 
THIS IS SINGAPORE ! NOT CHINA !!!!
THIS IS SINGAPORE SCHOOL , NOT CHINA SCHOOL
who cares about holding a ‘talent pageant’ featuring school boys. 
HELLO BITCH ! FACE THE TRUTH !!!!
THIS IS SINGAPORE ! F*** off to china if u want hold a talent pageant !and get off away from singapore ! 

my feeling now is so …. 

i like the way you talk to me in phone 

i like the way you smile at me

i like the way you do anithing

pls tell me that it’s issn’t love , pls tell me that my heart won’t

break animore 

everytime i look into your eyes , i could see that i love you  

05 april 2011 

alot of daddy go toilet will take their own sweet time rite ?

hahah was watching tv today and there is a new way to let daddy come out early

i’m so gonna try this way man ! look funni … but mummi was saying if i use this way daddy sure will be screaming at me !

hahah shall try it lata or tml ! weeee

JIA YOU JIA YOU !

mum start her nagging again !!!

I had enough of it already , what can i really do 

child care , media…. non is for me all so hard

no matter how hard i try he result is always playing on me 

My life totally sucks to the core !

started to get so jealous when i heard people getting in to he schools they choose.

why am i so stupid and untalented , can’t even do anithing good and get to study

mummy always compare me with other ppl , sometimes i wonder am i hopeless and useless , i dun understand whats the point of living if i’m like this … daddy and mummy keep compare.

sometime i get stress up and cry , feel like staying away with people why nt juz let me been alone better .  i’m so dissapointed with myself and i seriously hate myself so much that i feel like juz been dead will do .

i feel like i’m wondering around hoplessly and with a plan , what i wan ?? i have been asking myself this much but i really dun know what i wan . guess juz have to be back where i suppose to be 

been alone is the onli thing i can do .

hate myself much *dead sam*

Today had a random thought of cooking spaghetti as i have lots of left over noodles, and so i went supermarket with mummy and got e sauce plus minced meat .

started to cook and the result is ~~~ GOOD !!! ~~~ Even my brother love it alot and he eat alot too hahaha feel so happy yooooo~~ will cook it again soon !!!

你已走了， 我也走了

我们两都已放开了 

还记得你说的话

还在依赖着你的温暖

沉静里的夜晚

我想着

你诚给的承诺

躺在你的怀里，chen 是我爱做的事

在你的怀里， 让我觉得是最幸福的事

握着你的手， 让我明白你就是我的一辈子

anione wan help me continue this song ??

It’s 2011 , a brand new year and brand new start of a new year…..

Lets us all bless and wish that everyone will be happy

no more killing and fights !

World peace !